:: Am I Wrong? ::

this whole week was a disaster to me.
i've been in a fight with my other half and its totally messy. i wouldn't say that I'm 100% right, but I'm not 100% wrong either. so here goes my story.

well, why not let me just start with introducing myself.

im xara, im 25years old, been in a crucial relationship with a woman almost for 3 years.
yes. a total massive 3 years. there's so many things happen within that 3 years time and i don't think i can list it all down. there's just to many so I'll tell you once I go along.

so let me just tell you about what happen to me today. after a long week of fighting, i decided to make up with my other half. since we fought quite badly, i think its about time we had a good meal/buka puasa together since tomorrow im going to go back to my hometown to celebrate Raya.

She came to the place, and we went to the Anime Game Convention which I'm so dying to go. Everything was perfect. Then I decided to have our dinner in a fancy Japs restaurant which I'm going to pay for everything. I am not a rich dude, but for the sake of saving the 3 years of relationship I told her that the bill is on me. So she agreed.

When we got our table, I started to ordered food and stuff. Then the food arrived and we ate. When we're done, I said; "I want to see how much the damage will caused."

Guys, I don't know whether if its wrong to said that! My tone wasn't high or sounds like I'm whining. I was joking around with my signature, flat tone. My other half, immediately snaps. She thought I was being calculative and not sincere in treating her the dinner. She got angry, start talking to me in a very irriating tone and start questioning my sincerity. She also said I can't even say that line- "How much the damage caused." eventhough I told her so many times it was a joke and it was actually meant for myself.

She is retarded, ain't she? Can't even differentiate a joke with real meanie line.
What's more sad to know is, she don't even bother that I'm trying to make her happy again.
Am I sucha loser?

Goong TVXQ !

hey hey....

i made a new fics..

it's called Goong TVXQ ! u can guess by reading it's title... it'll be a parody of Princess Hour / Goong...

http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/tvxq_princehour

also here!!

http://tvxqprincehour.blogspot.com


So, happy reading..!! Please drop your comments to me as well okay!! <3

:: When U Said U Love Me ::

For the middle section and ending for my Jaemin fics, pls visit:

http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/Ms_Xara


Finally I wrote the whole story to the end and found a really good place to display it.. Pls enjoy it friends!! Cassiopeia Rulez!

DBSK Fan Fiction - Part 3

Title: When You Said You Loved Me
Characters: Shim Chang Min / Kim Jae Joong (JaeMin SoulFighter)
Length: until now, it just begin...
Rating/Genre:
Summary: it's a love story begin to bloom between Changmin and a mysterious girl he met on the street, but it became more complicated as Jae Joong came across their way.

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Changmin helped Jae Joong to clean up the dining hall a little before Jae Joong suddenly asked him to bring the samgyetang to Rynn’s room and feed her.
“It’s really good to combat with body heatness due to fever. Hyung will clear all this.” He said in a soft spoken tone.
“Ne, arasseo.” Changmin quickly get done with his sweeping and follow exactly what Jae Joong asked him to.


Jae Joong looked at him walking away until he disappeared behind the kitchen wall. His heart still thumping like crazy when he recall the ‘kissing’ moment he had with the ‘pretty boy’ Changmin. And it’s not like it was the first time. Jae Joong was the one who stole Changmin’s first kiss and he was sure that all Cassiopeia already knew about that! He did that on one morning, when Changmin was sleeping and refuse to wake up. Poor Changmin! The poor, handsome crybaby woke up with tears on his face because he was saving the ultimate kiss for a girl that he really, really like. Bad Jae Joong for stealing it away from him!


But reality is, no matter how much he likes him, it is totally against the odds.
“Andwae..! Na michigaesseo??” He whispered to himself if he was crazy enough to like his own dongsaeng that much.
“Maldo andwae yo.. I have to get rid of this feeling. This is not right. It can be right for me, but its not for him..” He continued whispering to himself again, all alone in the kitchen.


Changmin put down the tray with a spoon, a bowl and the samgyetang pot next to Rynn’s bedpost. He looked at the girl’s sleeping face over and over again. He never really kiss a girl before. He was saving it for a girl he really, really like. He was saving that moment for 21 years already. But of course, it was stolen from Jae Joong-hyung, that evil monster. It happen when he was asleep. But hyung wasn’t really a girl. He may look girlish, sounds girlish, graceful or even give sweet kiss like a girl, but he is not a real girl.
“Do I have feeling for her? If I don’t, why is my heart felt differently?” Changmin asked himself. He looked at her closely, and he bend down a little. He was so near to Rynn’s face, adoring her long eyelashes and peach-coloured lips. He looked at her as if he want to kiss her. He want to. Changmin trembled a bit, that is when he accidently woke her up.


Rynn was shocked to see a handsome guy was looking down at her as if he want to chomp her up just like that. The eyes were so beautiful, as beautiful as Han River. Anyway, what was he thinking?
Yeah. What was I thinking? Changmin felt like he wanted to choke himself to death, totally embarrassed. He was caught in the act! So he just smiled and pretend like nothing happen.
“Changmin-sshi..” Rynn's sweet voice finally came out.
“How are you feeling now?” He asked, still feeling embarrassed like hell.
“Did I fainted? I’m so sorry.. I caused you trouble…” Rynn cries softly.
“Don’t worry about that, okay? It’s not your fault that you’re sick. We are friends now, remember? Here, please have some soup..” Changmin smiled and pass her a bowl of samgyetang.
“You can cook? Changmin-sshi.. you’re so full of suprises..” she praised.
“Ah, aniyo. It’s not me. It’s my hyung.” He replied.
“Hyung?” She looks puzzled.
“Ahhh..” Changmin grinned, knew he haven’t introduce his hyung to her yet. He called out Jae Joong’s name loudly.
“Hyung-ah! Hyung-ah! Ppalli!!”
“De! Wae geurae yo?” Jae Joong rushed a little, because he was so sure something bad has happened. This Changmin will do that if he gets into trouble, he will definitely call for his hyungs.


As Jae Joong enter the room, it was a total silence. Rynn really cannot believe her eyes. The two angels of Dong Bang Shin Ki were in her apartment all these while. In her tiny, little apartment. One of them took care of her, while the other cooks for her. Oh, my God..
God’s power is really amazing.
“Changmin, that is Young Woong Jae Joong.. rite?” her voice shaked a little as the other pretty but handsome guy stared at her with his killer look.
“Jae Joong-hyung, this is Rynn. Rynn, Jae Joong-hyung.” Changmin said, pointing at the angelic, perfect, hot-looking guy behind him.
“Eung, I’m Jae Joong. Rynn-sshi, are you okay now?” He asked and made his move towards her.
“E, gwenchanayo, oppa..” She replied, shyly.
“Aigoo.. Now I don’t have to troubled myself so much anymore, because she can speak perfect Korean!” he claimed quickly in Korean, native language. He was so excited to hear Rynn replied him back perfectly in Korean.

Changmin grinned and give Jae Joong a few pat on his back.
“Ne, hyung.. Aniyo, andwaeyo, she don’t know much. Trust me, she don’t. Just continue speaking in English even if your English is broken like crap.” He laughed a little, because he speaks bad English too. Only Yoochunnie can speak good English among them all.
“How dare you..” Jae Joong looked at him with a laser stare, but they both laughed in the end.
“Yeah, yeah, let’s just talk the crappy English.” He agreed to Changmin and giggled.
“Don’t worry. As long as you both could understand my crappy Korean, I can worked out on your crappy English..” and all three of them laughed at the same time.
“You’re funny.. aigoo..” Jae Joong comments as they were tired of laughing their arse out.
“And cute..” Changmin added.
“Aniyo.. Stop making fun of me..” Rynn smiled shyly, feeling a little awkward being in the middle of two handsome-looking Korean guy on earth.
“No, no, we are serious.. You’re funny and cute..” Jae Joong said as he gave her the stare and smile. She blushed in instant. Jae Joong really have this power to steal girl’s heart just like that, by being honest and open.
“You know what, Rynn-sshi..”
“De..” she replied to Jae Joong.
“This boy here was panic when you passed out, so he called me on my cell..”
“Hyung, don’t start.. It’s embarrassing..”
“Mwo eyo? Tell me..” Rynn asked in curiosity.
“De.. This boy here was so worried about you. He was the one who carried you and took care of you just now.”
“Carried me???” Rynn almost screamed in total shocked.
“Hyung!! *Na michigaesseo..” (Means, ‘Damn, I’m going crazy.. — all because of your doings..) Then he continued speaking in Korean, “Ah, I’ll surely kill you when we got back home, hyung.”

Jae Joong just laughed and laughed, he could not handle it anymore.
“Haha! You can’t because I’m your hyung. Hahaha!” He replied him quickly in Korean.
“He said he want to kill me when we got back home.” Jae Joong continued to joke, translating the whole harsh sentence back to Rynn so she could understand.
“Jinja eyo?” Rynn laugh off as well, turning her head towards that blushing face of Changmin.
“Just ignore him. Aigoo, this is so embarrasing…” Changmin replied softly to Rynn and put his hand over his face.
"I think it's not something to be embarrased about. It's.. kinda.. sweet.. to me.." Rynn replied shyly. They both looked at each other, feeling awkward for a while. Jae Joong was the only one who is still giggling for some reason.

Jae Joong-hyung is such a prick! He will never change! Changmin’s heart screamed out. Jae Joong will always and always act like this because he is an honest person. He can accidently blurted out people’s secrets without knowing it. It happened a lot of time during interviews! The worst one was during the Dangyunhaji, also known as “Of Course!” game in The Xman Show. When he realized his mistakes, it was almost impossible to undo it because words spreads faster than Internet! He did say sorry a thousand times after that, anyway.
“Gomawoyo. I think that is the only word that I could say right now.” Rynn said shyly.
“Oh, you can do something for me..” said Jae Joong, as he held Rynn’s hand.
“Just please get well before we leave.” He looked into her eyes again and she melt.
“Sure. I don’t want to troubled anyone, too..” she promised, as she started to feel sad because she will be alone again.
“Good.” Jae Joong let go of her hand and take a slight glance at shyly-looking Changmin.
“If you don’t get better, then this boy here maybe will not be able to leave this room with happy heart.” He blurted out, again. Changmin studdered on the spot.
“Bo ga, ‘happy heart’?” Changmin cries loudly at Jae Joong’s broken English.
“And why me? And also, stop addressing me as ‘this boy’. I’m not a boy anymore!” He cries.
“Ahh..~ I’ve forgotten that part! Hahaha!”
“How could you say that to me, hyung…~~ Aigoo..~~ You are sooo evil…~~” And Changmin cannot help it but to smack Jae Joong right on his shoulder. Jae Joong smacked him back. They continued smacking softly on each other arms. Rynn smiled, feeling funny but amazed at the same time. She understood that both of these charming prince were very close to each other.

But these prince have to leave very soon and she will be on her own to solve her problem.
"Can I have your mobile number..?" suddenly Changmin blurted the words out.
"Err.. sure.." Rynn answered with trembling voice.
"Then, can I have it too?" Jae Joong immediately add-ons.
"Err.. sure, too.." Rynn smiled funnily, feeling really awkward to know they both want to have her number.
"Yay!" Jae Joong yelled in excitement and bring out his cellphone. Changmin smirked his face at Jae Joong. She said the number one by one, slowly. Both of them entered it in their cellphone and save it.
"My Little Puppy...! Aigoo.." Jae Joong whispered it at Changmin's ear when he took a peep at Changmin's cellphone screen.
"Hyung! Aish.." Changmin quickly keep his cell and start grabbing Jae Joong's.
"Aigoo.." Changmin did not dare to say the word but he smiled to himself, knowing the other side of Jae Joong.
"Superwoman Rynn.." Changmin sniggered to himself before Jae Joong took it back from him. So lame....
"Wae? Wae? Can't I name her that?" Jae Joong asked in Korean.
"Come on, I didn't say anything!!" replied Changmin, innocently.
"Well, you better don't! Or else, I will appear as Sadako and disturbed you at night. Haha!"
"You better disturb Yunho-hyung. He likes Sadako. Haha!"

Rynn cannot stop laughing. These boys are really amuzing. She totally forgot that she was not yet recovered and still need to have some rest.
"Stop making me laugh, you two.. Or else my stitches will open up because I laugh too much..." She said, softly. Both of the prince eyes widen, they were stunned for a second and stop fighting.
"Oh, we are so sorry! Are you in pain?" Jae Joong quickly kneel down next to her, holding her shoulder a little. Changmin also kneel and held her hand tightly, unable to say anything.
"I'm okay, I didn't mean to scare you both.. haha.. but you guys are amazing.. thank you.. So long I never had a good laugh.. Haha.. I'm fine.. Ha.."

Jae Joong and Changmin looked at her and there was about thousand of questions pop-up in their minds. She was laughing, and she looked so happy. They can tell it was a genuine laugh. In some other way, Jae Joong and Changmin feel relieved. At least when they leave, they will be leaving her some good, fun memories to be cherish.
"We are going to leave very soon. You don't have to worry of the door, we will figure out how to lock it.." Changmin said as he have to bid goodbye to Rynn. Rynn nodded, feeling sad but she don't really mind.
"Take care!" Jae Joong said as he also have to bring Changmin back to their home.

Jae Joong came up to her. He bend down and kissed her rosy cheek, followed by Changmin. He kissed her on the other side of the cheek and start hugging her. She hugged him back. There was a clear tears fell down from Rynn's cheek as he was saying something to her.
"I can never thank you enough for what you've done. Hope this memory will not fade from your mind." He whispered softly and finally let go of his masculine hands that embracing Rynn's skinny figure.
"But I must say goodbye." Changmin put his finger on her cheek, trying to stop the tears from falling.

Jae Joong looked at both of them and he started to back off little by little. When he finally managed to turn his back from them, Rynn was calling his name. He could not escape. A lamp post position for me, again? He asked himself, sarcastically.
It turn out to be she wanted to hug him as well. Jae Joong was shocked, but he agreed to it. Maybe this is the last time he'd ever see her again. But something has struck him as the ordinary girl's hand reached out and hug him close to her body. It was a different being hug by Changmin or the other member.

She was crying so softly. The warm tears fell down and he can feel it through his thin shirt. The girl is real. The feeling is real. It is very hard for you to say goodbye, isn't it? He felt it in him. That is what she was trying to say. It's a girl's language. He understand this language, its just that he have not meet a girl for a long time.
So he hugged her back. Long time ago, there was a girl like her in his life. Long, long time ago.
"Goodbye." Jae Joong said it anyway. "Please get well soon. We will text you!" he smiled with a sank heart.
"Goodbye, my lost puppy.." Changmin smiled cheekily. (Obviously he don't really feel what Jae Joong felt towards her. Changmin never in love with a girl before!)
And they both left.

Jae Joong drove the car slowly. He was so quiet after they left Rynn's apartment. Changmin was busy memorizing some songs from his iPod, so he did not bother what Jae Joong is thinking or doing. He was more into remembering his sweet moment with Rynn. The girl was so amazing and amuzing, too. Changmin had the feeling that they will be good friends for a long time, and with God's will they might end up dating as well! He blushed a little, thinking of how good it will be if Jae Joong-hyung was not there. They might be snogging back then! Changmin smiled again. It was a great experience, except for Rynn being stabbed. Oh no! That was not good at all!

Jae Joong bit his lips a little, Rynn's sad face were playing in his mind. He touched his own chest, and he still able to feel the warmth of her tears. It is very weird. So weird... and why... The attraction was so strong.. Did Changmin felt it? He looked at Changmin who is half asleep next to him.
"Obviously not!" He smirked a little and steer the wheel.



sad Jae Joong...


(changmin with sad looking face)
sad Changmin as he had to say goodbye to Rynn that night...

DBSK Fan Fiction - part 2 *updated!*

Title: When You Said You Loved Me
Characters: Shim Chang Min / Kim Jae Joong (JaeMin SoulFighter)
Length: until now, it just begin...
Rating/Genre:
Summary: it's a love story begin to bloom between Changmin and a mysterious girl he met on the street, but it became more complicated as Jae Joong came across their way.



Chapter 2.

Jae Joong ring the doorbell once. Not even in a split second, the door is unlocked. He stepped in quickly, afraid to be seen by anyone.
“Ahh..~” he said, “So, this is your girlfriend’s place? It’s so tidy! Lucky you to have such girlfriend! She will definitely clean up the mess that you’ve made in your room…” Jae Joong sniggered softly the moment he saw Changmin.
“Yea, yea.. very funny!” Changmin replied back, the only thing he could think to reply at the moment. You’re lucky, hyung, that I am extremely worried I can’t hit you…

Jae Joong put down the stuff he bought from the mart aside.
“Where is she?” he asked.
“In her room..” Changmin said and pointing to the right at the same time.
“You carried her? How romantic.. I’m so jealous..!” Jae Joong laughed softly. How he would love to see how Changmin carried the girl into the bedroom. Ah, I imagined too much of Changmin…
“Hyung, can you please stop teasing me..? Somebody needs your help and that’s somebody is me. So, please.. I really don’t know who else to ask for help.”

Changmin seems never really do this to him, but now obviously he is begging Jae Joong to help the girl. This is so not you, Changminnie… Jae Joong give him a subtle look, and lick his lips a little. He is not thinking of anything but wondering why would Changmin act so serious like this towards the girl, but never as serious as this towards the members.. or me..
“Arasseo.. I’ll help you.” He replied in polite tone. But it does not end there.
“I’ll help you because she already saved your life. Hope she won’t suddenly get up and slash us in return afterwards. Then it’ll be just like in the movie… what was it called again…?”
“Stop it, hyung.. or I’ll have to kill you myself..”
“Okay! Okay! I was joking! Haha. Changminnie, why are you so serious? Haha.” He laughed softly before Changmin starts pinching him on the hand.

Jae Joong brought in a face towel and a bowl of water, together with a cooling sheet into Rynn’s room. Changmin followed him from behind, looking at all his delicate movements. He must agree that Jae Joong is graceful in handling people, or while doing the house work. He must be a girl in his past life!
Jae Joong quickly took her temperature and measuring her pulse.
“I must say, she have a weak body… What’s her name, again..”
“Rynn.” Changmin replied.
“Yes, Rynn.” He repeated himself. “If she didn’t take good care of herself, she can get sick very easily.” He took a glance at Rynn’s face and turn back to Changmin with a stare.
“Some more!” He snapped. “How could you told me it was only a 18-stitches cut? It was a good, big stab right through her shoulder! It’s not a small cut.” How Jae Joong loved to give Changmin a huge smack on his back.
“Really? But that’s what the doctor told me. A cut.” He grinned and acted dumb.
“Come on, hyung.. That time I was too panic to explain properly to you..” He continue talking but grinning at the same time.

Jae Joong stared at him in amazement. Now, isn’t he cute, trying to be funny and all that..?
“But hyung, will everyone be worried if we don’t come home tonight? And you will end up in trouble again, just like the time when we drank some bitter juice together..”
“It’s ok!” Jae Joong cut him short. “Don’t remind me of that bitter juice story.. grr..” He paused for awhile, trying to forget the stupid incident during their early time in SM Entertainment. But it’s a good thing to know that Changmin was concerned about him, too.
“Hyung will give Yunho a call and it will be alright.”
He took the face towel and throw it on Changmin’s lap.
“Just give the towel a dip in the water, squeezed it, and put it on her forehead. Try to reduce the heat from her body, while I’ll be in the kitchen. Cooking. You must be hungry… I mean, she..” Jae Joong gulped a little. How could the word slips so easily? Darn it!
“Ne, agesumnida!” He nodded, seems not to hear the last part.

Changmin eventually start doing what Jae Joong asked him to without a word. He felt a bit sorry for dragging Jae Joong-hyung down together with him. Both of them might be facing a huge screwing from the management. Mianhe, Jae Joong-hyung…

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Changmin went out from Rynn's room after he took care of her for the past two hours. He still worried because her temperature still not decreasing. Somehow Jae Joong was calling him to come out, so he just listen. Maybe he should take a little break. Hyung said he is cooking ramen, Yunho's favourite dish when all of them touring Japan. His stomach grumbled a little. Changmin was hungry. He haven't had his dinner yet. It's already 3am, its already late for dinner. No wonder he felt so hungry.
“And you call this ramen…?” Changmin asked as he looked disbelief over a noodle cup on the table in front of him. “Hyung, is this a joke?” he continued.
“Uhh.. well.. you can leave it if you don’t like it..” Jae Joong sulked a little.
“Well, I’m fine with it.. it’s not that I never eat a cup noodles before. In fact, all of us ate it quite often during CM or MV shoots. But, you took like 2 hour in the kitchen! What did you do?” Changmin glanced at him again.
“What do you think I was doing..?” Jae Joong replied. He likes to see Changmin’s reaction changed from time to time. If they were not in other people’s house, Jae Joong knew he would definitely get a huge smack on his head for trying to be funny! Usually they both will end up quarrelling, poking and groping and fighting with each other on the bed with a lot of pillows, and get a good laugh about it.

Changmin gushed his breath slowly. Something really fishy is going on, somewhere. Changmin can sensed it. I am so want to ‘ kill’ you right now, Jae Joong-hyung!! He grab a seat on the sofa and stared at Jae Joong’s eyes.
“You know what, hyung..? Just forget it. Forget what I said, okay?”
Changmin was about to grab the cup noodle on the coffee table when Jae Joong quickly took it first.
“Andwae…~” he grumbled. “This is mine. Igeo ga chega.” Jae Joong said in soft tone.
“Yours is inside the kitchen. Go and get it yourself, you lazy bum..”
“Hyung, you’re such a big bully..” he mumbled and got up quickly while Jae Joong continued laughing. As Changmin walks closer to the kitchen, he could smells something intriguing. On the dining table, he saw a pot of samgyetang (chicken soup with ginseng) and a bowl of chicken broth ramen, deliciously decorated with some green veggies, white cauliflower, cherry tomatoes and poached egg. Changmin felt his heart thudding rapidly. He was so touched to see a very well-prepared food from Jae Joong for him. Jae Joong was merely joking about the cup noodles just now.
“Hyung…” he went out quickly from the kitchen and took a seat closely to his hyung. Jae Joong was doing some childish pout and still holding tight to his cup noodles.
"*Bulpyeong jom haji ma. Because I don’t want to exchange my food with you.” Jae Joong said, giddily. (*In Korean means, ‘Stop complaining’.)


<Changmin is sitting closely to Jae Joong, trying to persuade him..>


Changmin burst into laughter and he quickly gave Jae Joong a bear hug. So, there goes the impact. He felt like a chain-lightning has struck him on the spot, melting him. He was in a total silence as he could feel Changmin’s breaths blowing next to his ear, softly. He wanted to push him aside, but he could not resist. In fact, he likes it very much….
“Hyung, why are you troubling yourself like this? And why you’re eating cup noodles when there is plenty of good food to eat?” Changmin just speak his mind.
“Changminnie, the food is only enough for the two of you. Somehow, hyung hope you're happy because its the truth I'm telling." Jae Joong took a deep breath. "This girl really live by herself. Aigoo..~ You can simply tell it when you see her kitchen. When I looked at her fridge, all ingredients in the fridge is only enough for one person! It took me an hour just to find everything that can be cook for two inside her kitchen. Aigoo.. I was having a hard time.. So, please eat. Meogeosso! Don’t worry about hyung. I'll be okay. Gwenchanayo..”
“But hyung, I don't want to feel bad..” Changmin insisted.
“Ani, gwenchana..” Jae Joong refused.
"Shiroo~ you must eat.." Changmin begged and begged.
"Shiroo..~ Aigoo, Changminnie.. you're so annoying.." replied Jae Joong and quickly close his ears with both of his hands.

Changmin suddenly had an idea. A stupid one, but it might works.
“Hyung, come and share it with me please…?” Changmin grab Jae Joong’s hand and pull him to a small dining table in Rynn’s kitchen.
“Shiroo..~ Anmeogeo..~” Jae Joong wanted to pull back his hand but he couldn’t. He just can’t. His heart is beating rapidly. He stared quite a moment at Changmin’s handsome face, smiling at him.
“Please?” He begged again, with a killer smile.
“Changminnie, don’t you feel funny acting like this to hyung?” Jae Joong asked, feeling a little bit uneasy. Changmin pondered for a second and shook his head a little.
“Aniyo! We are sworn brothers. We can share anything!” He confessed, before his lips curved into a sweet, sexy smile. Jae Joong smiled back to him without a second thought. He could feel his face blushes as the blood rose very quickly to his head. He swear he will remember every single meaningful word that Changmin had told him just now.


For once, Changmin felt that Jae Joong should be treated nicely. After all, Jae Joong is so considerate and modest to him.
“Hyung, you must be tired and hungry too. Please have a bite.” Changmin offered the first bite to Jae Joong.
“Haha. This is really weird! Haha.” Jae Joong laughed, but tried to hide his mouth. The face turned pinkish in a second. He laughed and laughed. But he was really really happy!
“You are so bad! Don't laugh! Stop laughing!” Changmin bite his lips and could not stop blushing too. Aigoo..
“Haha. Ok. Then, you must feed me. If you don't, then the deal is over.” Jae Joong unable to help it. He just teased and teased him continuously. Changmin stared at Jae Joong in disbelief. It's definitely going to be uncanny if Changmin agree to the request. But, who cares? There's nobody else here. “Ne, agesumnida!” he replied, unexpectedly.

As Changmin began to scoop out the ramen and a bit of veggie with chopsticks, Jae Joong on the other hand was feeling a litlle bit uneasy. He was nervous. It isn't right, but Jae Joong felt so right. He don't know why he is feeling like this. Its weird, its weird, but he couldn't stop it. It's madness!
"Now, open your mouth... I'm feeding you now.." Changmin held the spoon gently, near to Jae Joong's mouth. Jae Joong ate the ramen slowly from Changmin's spoon.
"How was it, mashisseoyo?" ask Changmin, in a soft tone. He smiled as he watched Jae Joong chewing the food and swallowing it slowly. Jae Joong felt shy suddenly. He knew Changmin was watching him.
"How can I answer to my own cooking, you crazy? Come, its my turn to feed you now.." said Jae Joong as he quickly took the spoon from Changmin's hand.
"Waeyo?" Changmin asked in astonishment.
"Because.." Jae Joong begin to pick the ramen and veggies with his chopsticks now and put it on the spoon. "..we are sworn brothers.. and doing like this.." he continued as he held his spoon closely to Changmin's lips. ".. doing this, is alright.." he ended there. Changmin smiled, and agreed to it quietly. He held Jae Joong's hand, ate it from his spoon and start chewing.

Jae Joong did not dare to blink his eyes. He just stared at Changmin like he never saw him before. Moment like this, how he wish it could last a bit longer. It is not easy to be alone, only the two of them together just like this. There will always be Yoochunnie coming over and start interfering, or that Junsunie with his gags or magic card tricks of his. He secretly wishing this moment to last.
"Eung, mashisseoyo! Choa yo! I like your cooking, really tasty!" He said, quickly digging the ramen with his chopsticks.
"Ah, jeongmal? Ah, so happy!!" Jae Joong smiled and started to thank God for the gifted talent... (so vain?)
"Uh, hyung.. there's.. there's..." Changmin immediately took his finger to Jae Joong's lips.
"There's a stain on your mouth.. You eat like a small boy.." he complained and gently wiping Jae Joong's lips with his finger.

Jae Joong froze for a second. This time, he felt like he was struck by an icebolt. His body were so became so frozen and numb he just can't breathe. He even felt like fainting when Changmin kissed and sucked the tip of his finger and thumb quickly; it was the leftover of the broth on Jae Joong's lips... And by doing that, obviously they had accidently kissed each other..
"Ahh..~ It's too tasty to be wasted.." Changmin said as he continued eating. "Hyung, you must cook this ramen for me again next time.."
"Eung, eung, arasseo. Will do. Will do." Jae Joong replied softly but he still trembled deep inside. His soul was sort of out of his body for a while. Changmin sensed something is not right somewhere, because Jae Joong suddenly went quiet as if he just met a ghost.
"Hyung, why? Anything wrong?" He asked politely. Jae Joong quickly snapped from his dream. "Eung, aniyo.. nothing. Nothing. Let's eat.." He quickly changed the subject but actually Jae Joong couldn't stop thinking about it....


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mianhe.. continue again.. XD

< "The happy Changmin and Jae Joong with his cooking.." >

< "Can't believe Changminnie did this to me.." He said as Jae Joong can't stop thinking of the 'kissing' incident..>

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read Part 1 here.....

DBSK Fan Fiction - Part 1

Can't believe I'm writing a fan-fiction based on Dong Bang Shin Ki!!
I'm posting it here... well, it's only one quarter of the story... Hope non of Dong Bang Shin Ki Casseiopeia will come and kill me! >___<" joesunghamnida! Pls dont kill me... it just for the sake of fun...

The heroin: Rynn (created by me. No such person existed)

The hero: Shim Chang Min @ Max Choikang Changmin DBSK and Kim Jae Joong @ Hero Youngwoong Jae Joong DBSK.

The friends: The rest of DBSK members

Location: City of Seoul, South Korea

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Chapter 1. What is the temperature of love now?

It was drizzling. Rynn felt a slight cold on her chest. Maybe its because she don’t really have much fat to burn. Her slim fingers went numb. She trembled as she tried to open up her pink umbrella. In this big city of Seoul, anything can possibly happen.

As she walking down the street, she passed by a huge billboard of Dong Bang Shin Ki, again. Those boys are pretty popular these days… she mumbles and chuckles as she keep on walking slowly, trying to find her way back home. She still cant believe that there is such boyband, so successful and very likeable by everyone. How she wish to meet them in person, catch one of their live performances or something like that. Or a concert, maybe…. She really would love to see them with her own eyes. Are they really, REALLY as cool as they look?

But right now, she’s kinda lost in the city and she need aid… Rynn sort of have forgotten her way back home. Eventhough she has been here since two weeks ago, she still not familiar with the road yet and still very easy to get lost.
“What’s wrong with me? I didn’t go THAT far, didn’t I? Urgh.., I’m such an idiot..” she grumbles and mumbles to herself again as she flip through her pocket Korean dictionary. She needs to ask direction from the local. She needs to go home.

Suddenly she was distracted by some giggles not so far from her sight. It was a bunch of Korean ladies swarming around a guy, or she should addressed the guy as the most tallest, hottest, cutest Korean man she’d ever seen in her life so far! He is tall, thin but tough –looking, wide chest, broad-shouldered, dark-haired shaggy hair, handsome looking face with a curvy, sexy lips. He has a killer smile too. He is like an angel. Rynn felt her heart stop beating for a second. It was one massive impact indeed.

Not so far behind them, she saw a dorky-looking guy creeping slowly with a knife towards the handsome guy. She wanted to scream, but those voice seems to choke.
“Darn! What should I do?” she panicked. “I cant stand here and watch him dead??” she mumbled again. She have to do something before its too late…

So Rynn decided to get herself near the handsome guy and start shouting.
“Hey you! Run!” she screamed. The tall guy looked at her in surprised. The girls around him seems angry, staring at her as they felt like strangling her right away. Or, they just don’t understand English…
“Run now, you idiot!!” She dropped her umbrella and run towards the handsome guy as fast as she could. The guy still look puzzled and in shock.

The dorky boy with knife didn’t wait either. He walked even faster towards the handsome guy, wanting to slash him right away and done with it. Rynn can see it in his face. The dork one seems furious, full of anger and jealousy that she couldn’t imagine. She don’t really know what she’s doing, but she knows her heart saying that she’s doing the right thing.

Rynn got there slightly earlier that the dork. She stand right in front of the handsome guy, stared at him just before she could feel a sharp, tingling sensation, burning pain from her left shoulder to her back. The bunch of girls stood there, they screamed and shrieked as they saw the incident. Someone is trying to kill HIM. The dorky guy panicked for slashing the wrong person, quickly ran away after dropping his knife which is full of blood.
“Meomchuseyo!!!*” (meaning 'stop' in Hangguk)
The handsome guy shouted in panic, asking the guy to stop running. He moved Rynn aside and try to run after the bad guy before he could disappear in the darkness. He lost him in a second. Looking so frustrated and angry, he get back to Rynn. His eyes widen as he saw a lot of blood running down from Rynn’s knitted shirt.

Rynn smiled in relief seeing the handsome guy is okay and unharmed. At least, I’ve done what I supposed to, and you’re safe..
“Gwenchanayo?” asked the ‘prince’, politely. But he could not control his voice, it sounds shaky and Rynn knew he is worried.
“Eodi apayo?” He held Rynn closely and keep staring at her eyes, as he was wondering why on earth did the girl sacrificed for him at the first place. Its very brave of her, not even one of the girls he hanged out with just now would do the same thing.
“Mianhe, hanggumal mothamnida. I speaks English. I’m not Korean..” Rynn replied back, smiling but he knew she is in pain.
“But you just speaks in Korean, my dear..” he smiles a bit.
“You can speak English? Thank God!” Rynn giggled. The handsome guy grinned and smirked at the same time. He can’t believe Rynn has a mindset that Koreans are zero in English. Can’t believe you said that to my face…
“I think you need to see a doctor..” he said, in a very polite tone.
“Yeah, I think I should too.. I’m feeling weak..” She nearly fell but the guy manage to grab her skinny body.

The guy face turned sour as he held her up. The cut is deeper that he thought. She bleed quite a lot, too. But she act tough in front of me.. Wae? Why? Why she hid her pain from my sight? He felt pain in his heart in a sudden. Does she know who I am? But he doubted it. This girl didn’t say his name at all!
“So, there is some girls in Korea who still don’t know who I am..” Changmin mumbled to himself. “Well, she’s not even a Korean.. So it’s not weird if she didn’t know me..” he whispered and murmured all by himself in the taxi.

Rynn already can’t feel her arm. She felt so weak, and she didn’t know why. She finally surrender, letting her body to rest as she closed her eyes…
“Ajusshi!” Changmin poked her on her body and cheek a few times. He shaked her whole body but it seems lifeless. She passed out.
“Ppalli yo!” Changmin urged the taxi drive to speed up, as he held Rynn’s motionless body tightly next to his.


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Rynn opened her eyes slowly. I fell asleep, wasn’t I? She asked herself. As she turn to her head to aside, she saw a handsome young man sitting closely next to her, looking at her so dearly. The handsome, fine young man that she saved.
“How are you feeling?” he quickly asked.
“Where.. where am I.. Who, who are you…?” Rynn sounds dumb. Anyway, the handsome guy look obviously familiar. Rynn finally can see the guy’s face clearly under the white light.
Changmin smiled gleefully. This girl is so amuzing.
“Are you a lost puppy?” he asked, sarcastically.
“What.. what did you just say?”
“Are you a ‘lost puppy’? Why did a girl like you wander around in the city alone, not knowing the place, not knowing the language, prefer to get stabbed and end up admitted to the emergency ward?”

Rynn quickly looked around and found out her body is nicely bandage. She quickly tried to get up, that is when Changmin’s face changed.
“Aigoo..~ Please be careful! Don’t move too much~ Or else your wound will bleed again..” he snapped. He help her got up on the bed. Rynn said sorry quite a few times.
“You don’t have to say sorry. I’m the should be saying that. You’re here because of my fault.” He said softly. “By the way, ireumi mwo eyo? I’m Changmin!”
“I’m Rynn.” She replied.
“Rynn, from….”
“Malaysia saram eyo.”
“Ahhh.…~” he say it in a long ‘ah’. He seems not surprised at all. “I’ve been there before.. Kuala Lumpur, very hot..” he smiled cheekily.
“I see, you’ve been in my country before. Amazing. Of course, cos you’re.. Oh my God, don’t tell me you’re Changmin? Err, are you THAT Changmin? THAT Choikang Changmin???” Rynn screamed a bit. Changmin seems to nod his head several times.

Rynn realized it all now. All the CM, all the MV, the huge billboard by the street, even on the Lotte sticks, it’s HIM! It’s really him!!! Max, Choikang Changmin!!! She blushes suddenly. She felt like God is playing with her now.
“Changmin-sshi, can I, can I go home?” she asked softly. She don’t feel like staying overnight there.
“Hm?” he nodded. “Why not… I’ll send you..”
“ But, I.. I.. I really don’t know where I lived…”
“What??” Changmin burst into laughter. She’s not trying to find way to get into my house, is she?
“I have the address, but I don’t know where it is… Seriously!” she cries, feeling embarrassed when Changmin still laughing at her. Poor Rynn!
“Can you help? Jeosonghamnida!” she apologized.
So she isn’t joking.. Really a lost puppy..
“Ah, aniyo.. gwenchana…~” Changmin smiled at her, believed that she is sincere. Again, Rynn felt her heart skipped a beat. The massive impact, again.

<Laughing at Rynn..>

She pass him her phone, containing a memo of her own address. He looked at it, humming a bit, and pass back the phone to her hand.
“Okay! No problem… Ka ja?” He quickly helped her get off from the bed.
Changmin really CAN’T believe it. This girl doesn’t even know where her house is!! Total cuteness to him, absolute ‘lost puppy’! He never experienced anything like this before, so this moment is quite special to him. Shim Changmin, a man with everything with a girl who knows nothing.

They both kept quiet in the taxi, until they totally reached a place which Rynn can recognized.
“Hey, you found my house!” she cries in excitement.
“Of course, you little puppy..” replied Changmin, with a grin. “I know this place so well..”
“Oh really. I thought you only rely on the taxi driver.”
Changmin starts laughing and looked at her in amazed. He pulled her closely to him.
“Now, I’ll send you exactly to your doorstep.. okay?” he insisted and smiled.

Rynn left with no other choice but to agree to him. She didn’t know how to react. Rynn decided to stay calm and just enjoy the moment while it still last.
“I believed, we’re here. Your home.” he said, as he looked at the apartment’s nicely carved wooden door.
“Yes, we are. Gomawoyo..” Rynn bow as paying her gratefulness to him. He quickly held her up as disagree to her action.
“No! No, no.. Don’t thank me like this. I’m so embarrassed! I’m the one who should be saying thank you to you. I didn’t know the anti-fans would go this far. It’s all my fault you got hurt. Please, don’t bow to me..” He said in a sad tone.
“I’m glad that you didn’t got hurt. Thank you anyway, for sending me back home.” Rynn smiled and quickly unlocked the door in front of her.

Changmin didn’t understand why his heart pounded very quickly, as him being nervous. He didn’t know why he is hoping for the girl to turn around and say something to him. Or stop him. He don’t understand why he would wish such thing to happen, and why her. But he seems to secretly wishing for it. He secretly wished for Rynn to give him one romantic moment since this is his FIRST time to hang like a couple with a girl.

This girl really gave an impact to his brain. He knew he was wishing for something impossible, because they are both strangers. They don’t know each other. They say ‘hi’, and they end up saying ‘bye’. That’s what stranger do. They don’t see each other after that anymore….
“Changmin-sshi..”
Changmin studdered in astonishment.
“I’m asking you as a friend. Would you like to come in and at least, have a cup of coffee before you leave?”
Rynn never felt so nervous before. She knew she might have to face the biggest rejection ever in her life but at least, she tried. Who is she anyway? Exactly. Rynn, just an average girl and Changmin, a superstar. He is a man of every girl’s dream. They can never be together. She should probably stop dreaming...

Changmin turned around and his lips start to curve a smile at her. He nods a little.
“Sure. Why not.” He replied back, seems so happy to get the invitation.
So Rynn open the door as he enterered slowly into the hall. The light is dim and the hall is tidy. As Rynn shut the door closed, she turned on one light on the other side of the hall. She slowly walked into the kitchen and start doing her thing.
Changmin still looking around, amazed to be in a girl’s place.
“Hot keopi?” she asked him from far.
“Eung, maja.” He replied back and continue enjoying his view. She has a nice white lace curtain, a cute picture of her in high school uniform, plushy pillow everywhere in different funky colours, and a few fashion magazines lying around the sofa.
“You like my place? I just found it two weeks ago. Not bad, right..?” Rynn told him and hand over a mug fill with hot white coffee. Changmin held it nicely and have his first sip.
“Wahhh..~” he cries in surprised. “It tasted so..”
“Unique and nice?” Rynn asked him back. He quickly nodded and have another sip. It was the best coffee he ever tasted. It’s very different, unexplainable.
“I was a coffee master back then in my place. I even brought my mini espresso machine here so I can served good coffee. It’s one of my passion.” Rynn smiled and sit down on her favourite spot. She offered him a seat.

Changmin played around with the mug before he could look up at her and begin to chat. He wanted to know a lot, but he don’t know how to start. Maybe I should ask a simple question first….
“Rynn-sshi, if you don’t mind. Why you’re here? I mean, in Korea? Is there any particular reason?” He asked, curiously.
“Yes, there is.. But it seems quite impossible now. I didn’t expect Korea to be this big. Being in Seoul itself, haha, I got lost so many times!” Rynn giggles softly and still thinking of what a stupid arse she was this evening.
“So you’re sure looking for someone, I see…” just as he thought!
“Wow, you’re smart!. Changmin will always be Changmin. A smart university student with a blessed voice..”
“Oh no, stop praising me. I’ll blushed!” He laughed.
“Come on! Can you sing a little for me..?” Rynn simply begged. She knew he will sing if she ask for it.
“Sing? Now? Ok..” and Changmin starts singing the chorus of ‘You’re My Miracle’ gently. His voice really soothing, Rynn almost drown in her own imagination.
“Wow..~ that is veryyyyy good.” She clapped her hands, applausing.
“Ah, aniyo.. don’t praise me. I’m very shy..” Changmin giggled a little. Rynn giggles a little, because Changmin look so cute when he is embarrassed.

She put down her mug on the coffee table and start to dozed off. Her body felt so weak than ever. Rynn was not sure if it’s the medication or something else. She felt sleepy and very tired. A buzz of someone handphone broke down the silence.
“Oh, mianhe. It’s my phone.” Changmin snapped and quickly searched his pocket for it. He took a peep at the screen and mumbled.. “Argh! It’s hyung!”
He quickly answered the call.
“Yeoboseyo?” When Changmin picked the phone he knew he’ll get toasted!
“Changminnie, you naughty boy! Where WERE you?? You makes us all so worried!! You were with us in the club, and you told Yunho that you’re going to the bathroom. The next minute, you disappeared with some girls.. Are you going crazy??” Jae Joong cannot help it but continuously blabbering at him as soon as he picked up.
“It’s a long story, hyung.. Joesunghamnida.. Please don’t get mad at me..” Changmin speaks in soft tone and try to calm him down.
“What’s so long about it? Cos Hyung have plenty of time to listen to all of your excuses!” Jae Joong shrieked.
“Hyung, I nearly got slashed by an anti-fan. But that bad guy managed to get away..”
“You what? Mwo rago? Yah, yah.. Changminnie~ where did he slashed you? Neol gwenchana? Are you ok? Did you get hurt?” Jae Joong’s eyes wide open. He was in a state of shock in his life. His heart pounded so quickly, he feel like choking for a moment.

Changmin heard Jae joong’s voice suddenly changed. He trembled and trembled. It's really Jae Joong, he cares about the members a lot.
“Don’t worry, hyung. I’m not hurt at all, not a single scratch. But there’ s girl, she was the one who saved me..”
“A girl?"
“She..” Changmin felt like breaking down to tears. His throat feels so dry. He was still touched by her courage.
“Changminnie.. This isn’t like you at all. Did anything happen to the girl..” Jae Joong's tone goes even lower, he can sense Changmin’s sadness too. It’s obvious to him that Changmin is unhappy.
“Hyung, she.. she took the place for me. I’m the one who should get slashed but instead, she took it for me! The cut was quite serious, she got about 18 stitches. When the doctor told me about it, I feel so bad! She’s just a girl, she’ll have ugly scar, all my fault. My fault. But I didn’t have heart to tell her.”
“I didn’t tell her. I just can’t! And I didn’t tell her that she had to stay in hospital for another day or two…” Changmin explained in a very sad, tensed voice. Jae Joong felt it too. He must felt so bad about it… Jae Joong bit his lips and he listen quietly as Changmin keeps on talking (in Korean of course, he didn’t want Rynn to understand). “When she said she want to go home, I agree right away and sent her back. I didn’t have heart to say no. So, now I’m in her house. It’s okay, I am safe here. No one saw me.”

Jae Joong held his breath up and blew it slowly. He felt much better. More relief. Changmin did not get hurt at all, but some mysterious girl appeared to be some superwoman..? Jae Joong chucked a bit, before he heard Changmin’s voice get annoyed by his ignorance.
“Hyung? Hyung? Hyung!! You monster! Are you still there, are you listening? Or you’re laughing at me??”
“Hey, who are you calling ‘monster’? Where are you, want me to come over?” asked Jae Joong, quickly.
“Eung, sure. But please don’t tell the others. Just come alone, please. I don’t want everyone to get worry. I’ll explain to Yunho, Yoochun and Junsu myself.. also to the manager…” He said confidently. Jae Joong cant agree more to Changmin’s wise decision.
“Ahhh..~ Arasseo, arraseo… I’ll make up some story and come to see you now..”
KLIK! He quickly hung up the phone.

Changmin sighed. So, he told Jae Joong-hyung about it. He almost forgot about Rynn. She must be sick bored listening to their superspeed Korean conversation. He moved from his spot and went closer to Rynn. She seems to be asleep. So quiet, so angelic.
"Mwo ya..? I can't be falling in love with this, this puppy!" he snapped at himself. But he can't deny that he had a slight feeling for her, and he felt so uneasy for that. He sat down on the floor, next to her, looking at her sleeping face. This is what guy usually do when their girl is sleeping.. Most novel says so..

As he drew himself closer, he felt a slight heat coming from Rynn's body.
"Oh my God.. She having fever already..." Changmin panicked. He touches her forehead and a sharp warmth hit his hand immediately.
"Otteoke.. Hyung!" His mind automatically thinks of Jae Joong. He will come handy in this kind of situation since he is very good at taking care sick people. He took care of Yoochunnie before.
"Hyung, it's me!" he cries as Jae Joong pick up the phone.
"Ooh.." He had to pick up this kid's call even while he is driving! Jae Joong mumbled to himself. "Yes, I know it's you! Whats the matter now..."
"The girl, she already fell sick.." Changmin slowly pinching his own head. And I'm such an idiot who don't know how to handle this...
"Hum? Ah, arasseo. I'll get some medication and come over quickly. You don't worry, I'm nearby." Jae Joong quickly pull over and stop exactly in front of the 24-hours mart.

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will be continued......

read Part 2 here...

:: Another Year ::

(Pic: Pac-Man in action.. LOL, look at the Darth Vader guy knocking the poor thing... CF2007 LVL 6, Berjaya Times Square)

Another year is passing me by. Cute guys around me but I cant really respond. I feel scared. My old scars are burning everytime I think of a relationship. Not even Jae Joong or Daniel Henney can help me. It just this bizarre feeling I had. I just have to think how make things right again.

Living live alone in a city that you're unsure of is very nasty. I dont have must friends. I dont have must time to spend with friends. It's pretty uncommon problem but it happen to me. I'm too busy with my own world. Just realized that this Christmas I will turn exactly 24. I'm getting older. Time is moving. Nothing changed. Nanimo kawanai. Chotto mitte kangaetetta. Do shiyou ka? What should I do now. Settled down, as my father said. But how? Told you, not even Jae Joong can help me. Ah, kamisama.. tasukete kureru..

I missed my family. I wanna go home. But I cant. I drifted too far. I have a career now in KL, hell I'm the one who choose to be here at first place, didnt I?

And next year resolution for me is, to make myself and my fams proud. Dunno how, but will do. Married? Naaaahhh... another light year. So too bad lah Mr. F and Mr. A... not now, just not yet. SM Ent. contract? J-Tune? One In A Million? LOL not that kind of dream too, too old to be an idol..... we'll see lah then.....